New Year

Celebrating the silver jubilee of my birthday!

Hiya guys!

You could have guessed what this post is all about.  Yes. It’s just 6 more days to go for me to turn 26years. So it’s a post for summarizing the whole 25 years of my life on this earth.

Just before few hours I received a text from a friend of mine telling me to treat him for I am going to celebrate the successful completion of my 25 years.  Haha yeah I should actually do that by throwing a party but I don’t know what could I probably choose to tell as a reason for celebration.

Should I say that I have achieved something?  Nah. That would be a big fat lie.
Or should I say that I have at least made something remarkable for someone to remember me? Hmm yeah maybe.  But I bet that’s not gonna be in a positive way either.

So that is what hinders me from celebrating my birthdays be it 25th or whatever.  But after thinking over these I started making a list of the have’s and have not’s of mine after all these successful 25years. Let me just list down those for you 🙂

HAVE’S:

1. I do have few people around me who I think really cares about me at least to say “I Love You” whether they really mean it or not.

2. I now have a life of my own to decide upon like how am going to live.

3. I have some courage to face the problems however tougher it maybe by still surviving.

4. I have a DSLR, which is keeping me feel lively with its help in making me take better pictures and to make people notice me.

5. I have a big deal of confidence that am not gonna die sooner leaving me no choice than to make my living with some career which I haven’t chosen yet.

6. I have few books which makes me think and make few changes to my thoughts about everything in and around me. I learn something from each book I read and the question is do I follow it. But for that I’ll have to write another post which can be done later 😉

7. I do have a passion for crafting and writing which is yet to be improvised a lot.

So as far my analysis I have o ly these 7 important things in my life.  So let’s look for the have not’s.

HAVE NOT’S:

1. I don’t have my father with me which is my biggest loss of my life and am still working on it to set everything right without his help, but the truth hits hard sometimes by proving that I need help from my father.  But lets never mind because that’s not gonna happen anyhow.

2. I don’t have a guide to lead me, which is why I go wrong making mistakes over and over all my life.

3. I don’t have a good rapport with the people who actually love’s me. Somehow I mess things up, though how hard I try to retain a relationship I end up breaking it myself. I sometimes prefer to be alone rather being with someone and ending up hurting them.

4. I don’t have the boldness to speak out what I think. It leaves me being a stupid all my life.

5. I don’t have the ability to take a decision that is supported by at least few. Or the ability to convince people to accept my decisions.

6. I don’t have an exact idea of how many people love’s me and how many don’t. 

7. I don’t have a job or a clear career prospect as of now.

8. I don’t have any savings of my own. Though money and other materialistic things can be earned or not earned which doesn’t concerns me much, I still need to save a lot of money to fulfill my goal.

9. I don’t have a group of friends to hang out with or understanding relatives to share my thoughts with or spend some family time. I find everyone looking for something to get for themselves which makes me stay away from most of them.

10. I haven’t made my mother proud of me even once in her lifetime and instead I have let her down a lot.

11. I don’t have the confidence or positive attitude just like people refer to me as ‘a girl of negative thoughts’.

12. I don’t have a proper place to sit in silence for hours or cry out loud to vent out my feelings which makes me feel more stressed out. 

13. Finally,  I don’t have trust on people even if they are trying to be nice due to the insecured thoughts which doesn’t allow me to love people anymore the way I used to do in my early life. Just because of few bad experiences.

So the have not’s have exceeded the count of the have’s as usual 😉

But from this new year eve I have tried to make few changes to myself which may be seen by the next year. Until then let me not keep on speak over the have not’s in which few can be changed too 🙂

With this post what I meant to say is, I haven’t done anything to celebrate my silver jubilee for my birthday and it’s going to be just another passing day of my life.

No celebration. No parties. No treats. :-p

But ready to accept all your heartfelt wishes on this 25th birthday 🙂

Perfect year of an imperfectionist!!!

It was 6.00A.M when I woke up. I found my mom waiting for breakfast already. She had a fracture in the right hand once again before a week and from then I’ve taken up the responsibility of my house. I finished doing the breakfast and fed her and started preparing for lunch. After some solid 4 hours I have completed with my works and returned to my room a bit tired. I am not used to such a lifestyle. I am a perfect example for an imperfect girl!

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Yeah!

It’s been years since I’ve seen crack of dawn. I doze behind schedule as a rule. I am a slow-person you can call me lazy otherwise. I don’t have healthy eating habits. I am plump. I don’t dress well. I don’t take care of myself for good. I walk wobbly. I don’t study well. I’m not in the pink. I hate taking up responsibilities in households. I mess with my relationships. I speak rubbish. I don’t have long-lasting friends. I easily forget, dodge and hurt people. I suck at decision making. I’ve lost track of my career wondering over a pond of unbosoming flowers. I haven’t made my mother proud. A good number of guy’s hate me and so do a lot of girls and the reason is by and large known and hardly unknown too. I act weird more often than not. I am left good to stay alone. I am a spoiled kid now and then.

As like every other year, 2013 started with a new set of resolutions that are to be listed in not-to-be-overlooked-again-list. I had lost interest doing my course as I found the institution less worthy and so are the people around me. The month of February welcomed me with a series of unexpected events making me collapse. Losing 26k with my recklessness, following with my mom’s wrist fracture and relationship issues led me to a hell-lot-of-stress for more than 6months. I was losing faith in my life. I thought that 2013 hold up so much grudge over me and I was unsure of how long I could hold on to the last loop that binds me to the body and soul. The humans are uncertain about what the future beholds. Being a slow-on-the-uptake-person I was facing ups and downs every day. One day ends up serene while the other dawns skeptically ominous.

 But then things started taking good turns. There came few people like the arch-angels in the name of friends and brother. I was encouraged and helped out in making decisions. I shifted places. My days were getting better. I felt happy and blessed. I gained and lost people. I earned and broke trust. I was loved and being hated. But whatever happened I found myself turned out to be in high spirits. I didn’t regret anything and for anyone. I’ve been trying to start my quest of life. I am working on fulfilling my wishes.

Coming to the end of the year, I take this opportunity to thank every single person who made a huge impact over my life both in good and bad terms. I thank you for various experiences that make me a better person day after day.

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I don’t predict future because my life has never been with a bed of roses and instead it was the thorn that pricks me whenever I tried to have the rose finally leaving me few petals on the struggle. So the perfect year 2013 comes to a perfect end for the imperfect girl. Looking forward for more thorns and roses.

Wishing you all a Very Happy New Year!!!

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The things happened in the last part of 2011

Its the birthday post of the cute little Shyam who lives in my next-door. He turns 5 on December 16th 2011. It was a kids party though filled with kids from my apartment including me 😛 And here goes the pictures of the birthday bash!!!

 

 

Then the second was my cousin sister’s  marriage event which was a memorable one as i had one of my best 2 days of life with all my cousin sisters chatting playing pranks and all sort of girly things 😀 Thanks to all you guys who made those days a memorable one 🙂

A Christmas dinner with my sisters was a splendid moment which i can never forget. Each time i move out with my sisters i love the whole time spent with them 🙂 What i loved this time the more was the new restaurant and its settings which was quiet like a village effect 🙂 Good try guys 🙂 But need to concentrate more on the details of the restaurant to make it a perfect village effect 🙂

Thus my 2011 ended with heaps of joy and cheer!!!

Thus was the beginning of my 2012… It begun with a layered hair cut which i was eagerly waiting for a year and finally got it done in 2012 🙂 And purchase of Jewels was another joy 😀

Hoping for this whole year to be like this with lots of cheer and happiness for me and all you guys 🙂

New Year 2012!!!

Hello all,

Pardon me for sending belated New Year wishes… Got held up with few works this time… Hope its not too late yet…

Wishing each and every one of you and your family member’s

warm and cozy New Year

letting loads of joy and fun this year

with each of your most desired wishes to come true…

Happy and a Prosperous New Year 2012…

Today is the first working day of this year 2012 and its been quiet the same with no twists and turns yet 🙂 Hope there is something waiting for me to reach my wish this year both in personal life and professional life J Keeping my fingers crossed for newer challenges 🙂

An Oath for 2012

Its gonna be yet another year of life I am given to live in this revolutionary world and trying to make my life a benchmarking one. As we always think of a New Year, each and every year we kind of think and wait over for it eagerly awaiting what’s the New Year has got to present for us. Though it might be good or bad all we need to do is accept the presents and learn to make it a valuable one wisely with faultless decisions. As it’s just this one year we might be experiencing certain rare happenings in our life and the next year there might be some other new experience might hang around.

Each and every moment must be treasured and wrapped up with a golden strand as these teaches us lots more valuable lessons in our life for future and also changes our life into a beautiful solace. It just depends on us what makes our life change into. So as usual at the end of the year here comes my New Year resolution which is listed to top 10 prioritized from high to low which is been given with high confidence that I can make it happen at-least this year 🙂

  1. Trim down my body weight (Though this was my top resolution for the past 3 years I was unable to achieve it due to my laziness and flexible nature when it comes to reduction of weight 😛 But once again this positions up to be the top resolution for the new year 2012)
  2. Settle on an ideal career (Though I love working in my present job as a Content Writer I do wish to make it much simple as this is not my cup of tea. So I am on another job hunt until I land up on the exact line of work I prefer which makes my career growth more simple and commendable one either in the field of teaching or serving people)
  3. Work on my intellectual performance like avoiding stress to overlap my mind, body and soul frequently and to reduce my angered attitude and this ends up hurting my loved ones at times.
  4. Work more on my topics to write on my blog (As I do not ever think of a topic precisely to write it as a post. I always tend to write what I get that instance which is making my blog less notable)
  5. Improvise my craft works with appropriate finding of materials and make out my crafts look out best for sale.
  6. Work more on my painting skills and clear out the losing grounds and hold grip on it.
  7. Learn to make out my own decision clearly forecasting the future consequences and letting no gap for anyone to insert their nose over my decision and prove it wrong.
  8. Making out a colossal choice of my life over marriage which must be my life’s worthy one as marriages are made in heaven and with just a minute slip it must not turn out to be a hell.
  9. Buy a DSLR cam which is my long yearning desire and hope 2012 might be a lucky one to get me one 🙂
  10. Finally thinking of changing my HP laptop and purchase a new laptop as my present one is half-dead with my long hour usage without a proper care over it.

Guys, do watch out for December 2012 and you can find me merely following few of these things… But well… actually… i have been thinking of seriously… yeah damn seriously… to follow these resolutions 😀