Month: February 2012

Impulsive Management Changes

Ciao guys!

I am TinyToes, a sluggish female working as a Content Architect in one so-called IT sector in my city. Its been 16 months since I joined this concern.

I was just a novice while entering this concern and being my first job of my life I put-forth my fullest effort in making myself fit well with this designation. To my surprise I found the concern and my colleagues so supportive and they were ready to teach whenever you go by pestering them in the middle of their hectic schedule. And there are lots more the place and the people taught me in my personal and professional life.

But it’s some sort of personal issues which made me take a decision of leaving this firm and take a quiet vacation for my own self apart from my work pressure. And thus I have mailed my resignation to the concern in the beginning of this year.

And here is a short demonstration of the most surprising management changes which I experience in my office after my decision which gave me a nostalgic feeling and made me stick up hard to my decision.

(A formal discussion between me and M.D regarding the mail I sent for resigning)

M.D       : I’ve seen your mail TinyToes. So how far is the issue with your Mom’s health?

TinyToes     : As I have informed you earlier regarding her @#%^! problem I think we have to undergo a surgery sir. And it might make her bed-rested for a month atleast and it’s my responsibility to take care of her. So thinking over these I’ve finally landed to this decision sir.

M.D       : Hmmm… Ok then. The fact here is, we haven’t even gave a thought for selecting another candidate for Content Writing and looking over your reason let me start scrutinizing candidates for your post. And you must work until we hire another candidate as you knew it well that we have quite a lot of projects lined up and technically we need your assistance. So let me inform you regarding this two weeks later TinyToes.

TinyToes     : Okay sir.

(I came up with a very heavy heart. As you knew the reason well. If not let me say it myself. I took a decision of leaving the concern only for some valid reason. But I had a silly thought that I might be a value (!!!) to them and so they might suggest me some other alternative in making me stay here instead of resigning. If not atleast a word of formality in asking me not to leave the concern. But nothing happened as I expected and I understood clearly that they don’t think me as one of their value. And why the hell must I be here anymore? I got firm with my decision.)

(After two weeks of time period I mailed a reminder for what we discussed earlier. So we had another meeting for that.)

M.D       : TinyToes, I remember saying I will update you regarding the hiring process and I think you didn’t get me anything wrong like I said I will relieve you in two weeks.

TinyToes     : Yes sir, ofcourse I knew it. But the thing is you might be busy with your works and its my duty to remind you and moreover my mom and her surgery is more important for me and that’s one main reason which you could understand better.

M.D       : Yes. I understand. But we are not able to select a candidate with the desired skill set as like you and so it’s been dragging along so much of time. Let me make it sooner.

TinyToes     : Okay sir.

(“See still they don’t even have the courtesy to say me stay. Even if they are gonna say am not gonna stay here anymore. “Mumbled my consciousness.)

(Another two weeks have passed and I was called in for another meeting before which they had quite a few interviews with some candidates and I thought it’s time for me to get relieved.)

M.D       : Yes TinyToes. So we just called you to inform that you have been given an increment. Have you checked your account?

TinyToes     : Oh… Not yet sir. And may I know what the reason behind the increment is now?

M.D       : That’s nothing. We had a discussion 4 months earlier regarding your increment right. So after considering your request we have offered you the increment.

TinyToes     : Oh… ok sir.

M.D       : And TinyToes, how’s your mother’s health? Is she any better?

TinyToes     : She’s fine for now sir. And if she needs to get better, then the only way is the surgery.

M.D       : Fine. So why don’t you consider in staying back at ******* TinyToes? You see we find it difficult in selecting a candidate similar to your flair for content writing. And instead of searching for another person similar to you why cant you work here for a while. And even if you need some medical leave for your mother’s surgery you could sure take it and you can even work from home if you wish.

TinyToes     : !?!?!?!

M.D       : Look TinyToes. If only your mother’s surgery is bothering you, then just leave it aside. You can have your working time or working type get changed as work-from-home basis. All we try to say is that we don’t want to lose a talented girl like you for such reason. Is there any other issues related with your resignation?

TinyToes     : Huh??? No sir. Only this.

M.D       : Ok then. Why don’t you discuss regarding this with your family and consider staying at this office for another 2 more year’s atleast until they find you a groom to get married. Hope they haven’t started looking alliance for you still he he he. We expect a positive reply from your side TinyToes.

TinyToes     : Hmmm okay sir.

(I left the room with a pale face and a millions of thoughts haunting my mind. I can accept everything he said. But except one thing. Hey am going to be 24 this March and how the hell do you think my parents wont see alliance for another two years and spend my life so miserable in being single when all my pals have got two kids already and my sisters who has started teasing me to get married soon so that their path might get cleared soon and a lots more)

(After a week, that is which happened a few days back this week, another meeting was held)

M.D       : TinyToes, have you discussed with your mother?

TinyToes     : (I was totally forgot about that and stupidly enquired back to him) About what sir?

M.D       : (Angrily replying) ABOUT CONSIDERING TO STAY HERE!

TinyToes     : (Oh Shit!!!) Hmmm no sir.

M.D       : Why? Are you firm with your decision then?

TinyToes     : Yes sir.

M.D       : Well. So what else to say. We are having an interview in the middle of this week and I guess we would select the candidate for you position. If selected you can leave when your current projects are finished.

TinyToes     : Oh… Thank you sir. I have two projects lined up to be finished and it will probably take a week to be completed will finish that and will get relieved sir.

M.D       : Okay.

( I came out with face full of teeth and already I have started flying in seventh heaven )

 

The happiness is because I am going to get relieved from a place who don’t value neither me nor my talent and once they have ended up with no eligible candidate they come back giving increment and brain-washing me to stay with so much polished words. Even after these much of happenings if I happen to stay here would I be treated nice? Won’t they think I am easily convinced and changed my decision with a salary hike? Am I valued with my talent or valued with the amount of productivity I yield and amount spent over me? It’s just embarrassing when I dig down the hole deeper. So let me stop this situation with this much of imagination

Happy Valentine’s Day!

Ciao guys!!!

Its the Valentine’s Day! Celebrate with your LOVE and start experiencing the true essence of Love!!!

The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing called love and feel the depth, the delight, the ecstasy of it, you will discover that for you the world is transformed.

When love is not madness, it is not love.

Here comes few of my Craft works for this Valentine’s Day:

 

 

These Key-chain’s are made from Felt cloth 🙂 Hope you like it 🙂 

So all you guys, enjoy with your Better-half and hope this Valentine’s Day be a memorable one for you all 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

 

 

 

Epic of Love!!!

Dad why don’t you try to understand us. We haven’t done anything crime. Please dad we love each other for the past 5 years and you knew it well. Why can’t you accept us dad?” pleaded Janaha with tears running down all over her face.

Just forget that rouge you idiot. I am just leaving you alive based on some kindness as you are my daughter. Get out of my sight and never again speak of him” yelled Vasudev at his daughter.

Dad please. It’s been 5 long years ever since we started begging for our life and why can’t you even consider us once in your life? How long do you think of house-arresting me? Though we both knew everything what you’re been doing to separate us, we trust each other and thus our love becomes stronger each and every day not even seeing each other for the past 8months.

Shut up your blabbering and go in Janaha. Don’t make me take a tough decision

What do you mean by tough decision dad? Are you gonna kill me?

I said you to go in now!

Stop it dad. I’m done with all your dramatic expressions. Why don’t you act a bit human? Whats your problem dad? Mithun is our neighbor and you knew him well from his childhood. And above all he is our caste too. What is that hinders you from accepting our love. It’s just your useless ego that made us shed tears with all the tortures that we’ve been through. Everything has a limit dad. He means a lot to me. And now do listen carefully dad. I love him and I no more gonna wait for your approval. It’s my life and being 24 years of age I have the sole right to take my own decision. I waited so long for your approval but everything went in vein. So I’ve made my decision and I need you to get to know this dad

Well done my girl. That takes a lot of courage to you to speak up to your dad like that. I’d appreciate it. But don’t act lame and just get to bed now. I can find you all grown up now and stand here threatening your dad but you haven’t understood the fact that you can never do anything that makes me or my prestige by letting it down. I am least cared about your immature love feelings and all. Now go to your bed” ordered Vasudev in a mystifying tone.

Janaha knew it well that there is nothing gonna change her dad anyways. So she decided to elope with Mithun finally with everything kept ready before hand with a secret message which she passed out to her love a week before. And for a final try she was standing there pleading her dad for his acceptance. Finding her dad’s decision she left to her room silently and locked her up as usual and started to wait for the time to struck 1 a.m.

And the time has come. The clock struck 1 a.m. and Janaha got up from her bed and tried to elope through the secret passage which Mithun has made for her escape. He is been waiting on the other end of the passage for more than a hour restless with fear running all over his veins and when he saw the clock striking 1 a.m. his heart begun pounding as though it might jump off through his mouth.

Janaha kept each of her steps with more care and made sure that nobody watches her until she reaches that passage. Once she reached the passage she is free from worries as none of their family can find that passage so easily. She was moving ahead with a nostalgic feeling that was filled over her whole body and she was sweating like a dead meat with all the fear in her heart.

All of a sudden she experienced an electric shock that passed over her body and she fell down to the ground with a loud noise. Unluckily she had stepped on the electric wire which is been kept half done. Somehow she managed to get up and move forward to the passage. In the mean time hearing the noise her dad and her brother got up and came out looking for the reason and found her trying to escape.

Vasudev and Varun went to the peak of rage and they caught her red-handed and dragged her inside the home.

You little brat. How dare you try to elope with that worthless fellow by cheating us? Who gave you so much courage to do this? Is it Mithun? Now its time for me to payback to both of you. Enough of my lenience. Even if I don’t react now, I have to stand mortified in front of my relatives and friends because of you. Varun get that venom from the freezer.” Yelled Vasudev at his son.

Dad, are you serious? Should I really take it?” asked varun puzzled.

Yes varun. I mean it. Just do what I say and no more questions

Ok dad” said Varun and bought the venom.

After all these fury Janaha made no hustle and she stood there tough.

Look at her. How stubborn she is? It’s not going to happen any better leaving her alive. She will be creating shame to us and our family only” saying so Vasudev compelled her to drink the venom and he threw it away emptying the full content of the venom into her throat.

Janaha was still brave and she didn’t make any move for rescuing herself. Instead she spoke her last words with much strain which made her father turn pale.

Bravo dad. You’ve done it. You have succeeded in you ego and useless stature. But you know what? Even now I have won the battle. You can kill me now but you cannot stop me and Mithun living happily after our death. And just remember dad. Lovers die and not the true love and it lives forever. Am proud of dying for the sake of our great love. Thanks dad” saying so died Janaha creating an epic for her true love.

Mithun stood there, on the other side of the passage, waiting for Janaha’s arrival till the crack of dawn with a lot of emotions and thoughts running through his mind. Hearing the expression of grief from Janaha’s mom he rushed in her home and found Janaha lying there speechless and frozen. Thus ended his life of joy and pleasure and unable to take over the huge shock he turned out to be upset mentally and he was found laying over the grave of Janaha for 4 long years unaware of who he is and where he is and finally one day his soul left his body and united with his love after so long years of battle and rivalry. Thus lived the most beautiful lovers of the earth blissfully ever after in the kingdom of heaven without any interference.

Note: This is an actual anecdote of a couple, who are a relative of mine, who lived in interiors of South India in early 80’s where the caste and status played the major role in the minds of human beings. I have heard a lot about them and their sufferings to succeed in love from my parents which is so hard to put into words and thus I have made it in short and presented it for all of you on this Valentines Day. This post is dedicated to both of them and I hope they will still love each other. Happy Valentines Day!

Heart wrecked!

I was reading a story in which the male lead was presenting a gold chain with a pendant which the female lead was craving to have it for such a long time. The writer of that story has narrated the happiness that female lead was enjoying that time and that gave me a nostalgic feeling though.

My mind raced back a year before where I stood in front of him with a kind of volcanic eruptions inside my mind and heart thumping over to my feet with  feeling of numbness taking over my whole body. That was the day I was bought to this world, and each year would be a happier one, unlike that day. Yeah. It was the day when my heart broke into infinity pieces which I felt so hard to gather it to its bits and pieces and yet searching for the missed ones.

I was an easy going girl with no worries surrounded with beautiful family and loving friends. I never had thought of such a day where I would be betrayed by my own so called best-friend, Kevin. I and Kevin were friends for around 4 years and he was my best buddy with whom I share each and every moment whether it’s better or bitter. But he being such an insane guy who was obsessed and possessive over me made up stories about us into relationship knowing that I never had thought of him in such a way. This made me heartbroken and I never again dared to trust a guy anymore.

And after the break up of our so-called-relationship, here I stand in front of him after 4 long months with nostalgic feelings erupting inside my heart.

Sherly please wait up for a sec!”

Whats your problem kevin?”

Sherly. Just relax. I know I am such a jerk and you wont ever forgive me. But please remember that its your birthday today. Have you erased the good old memories and fun we had together in the past years?”

Look Kevin. I am not a retard. I do remember everything and which is the only reason I still stand here speaking up to you though I like it or not” I busted out outrageously onto him.

Hmmm think your still in a high rage with my behavior. But you know what? I don’t feel guilty for it and I just wanted it to be true with us into a relationship Sherly. I felt as if you were onto a part of my life and I couldn’t even imagine a world of mine without you in it

That’s right. I know you wouldn’t be guilty forever. You can have all kind of imaginations as its your sole freedom. But who ought you the right to gamble my life with a fake correlation among our college mates

I don’t think it’s a fake one. I felt it true with my heart full of love for you. Please don’t avoid me Sherly

What? You don’t think it’s a fake one? It doesn’t mean that we are into a relationship with you thinking so. If you are true onto your love why haven’t you had the guts to say me instead of spreading rumors like a coward?” the words came out fierce from me and I didn’t have a control over my mind, heart or my tongue afterall.

Sherly I have not come here to argue with you. And I also knew that you wouldn’t understand my love. But am sure that one day you will come back to me with your heart full of love. But am now here to wish you A Very Happy Birthday

God! You are so insane. I don’t need your wishes. Just leave me alone Kevin” saying so I started walking back to my home from the terminals.

Suddenly he held my hand tight not letting me go from him with a raised voice “Wait up Sherly!”

That’s it. I couldn’t take it. The people around begun staring at us who made me feel awkward. “Leave me Kevin. Please. People out there are staring at us. Don’t create a scene

No. I need you to listen to me. I just came here to wish you and offer you my present. Just take it Sherly. I mean it

I don’t need anything Kevin. I would be happy if you let my hands off now

No Sherly. I can’t. Just open it up and see what’s waiting for you in there. And I bet you wont speak up like this any longer

Am not fascinated for any of your presents Kevin. All I expected from you is the true friendship and trust within us. It all ended up right there when I found your betrayal to the one you loved

I didn’t betray you. What’s that for now? Let me say it myself. It’s a Gold chain with the beautiful pendant which you once loved to buy on our shopping. I specially bought it for you hoping that you would be pleased Sherly. Just open it and see. Your anger might flew away in no time

Hey Kevin. Say you what. You are not sure about what you are upto and you just don’t have a damn idea about love. You have a mere fatal attraction towards me and please don’t define it as love. Love doesn’t come over presenting a gold pendant. That doesn’t prove your love. It proves your male-chauvinism. Do you think I’ll forgive you for everything you’ve done me for the sake of this gold jewel. You are in the wrong place with a wrong attitude. Mind yourself. Am just ashamed of being your friend for the past 4 years. I don’t need a person who values me with a gold jewel but I really love the one who cares me with the trust and love. No matter what you do in your life, be true to the one you love and sure you’ll be loved in return. I am no more in your sick life and goodbye once for all to you and your damn jewel” saying so I flipped my hands from him ferociously and started walking back towards my house.

After a year of this confrontation when I get to remember this incident I still have a nostalgic feeling over it and my heart weighs a lot more than usual and tear drops fall off my eyes thinking of the day I broke up with my so-called-best-friend. And never I can hate him and still love him for no reason with those lost bits and pieces of my heart as a good old Friend.

“A relationship doesn’t always need to be treasured with precious possessions but what matters is a beautiful heart which values people and their love. “